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  By Suboxone | February 16, 2012 - 2:45 am | Uncategorized
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If it’s your first visit to my blog you will probably want to read the earliest journal entry first. Since the most recent entry’s are displayed at the top of this page you will need to go to the oldest entry and read from there.

My first post is dated 1/17/2012 and it will be located on the “last” page of the blog. To get there just click here -> 1st Suboxone Journal entry.

The most recent journal entry is right below this post. Enjoy reading about my story of opiate addiction (Oxycotin, heroin, Vicodin, ect.) and my attempts to use Suboxone to quit opiates for good.

 

1/27 – Last Day of Smoking Heroin so I can Switch Back to Suboxone…

  By Suboxone | April 8, 2012 - 7:57 am | Daily Suboxone Journal
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Friday, January 27th – 2012

          Today I woke up around 10am with about .65 grams of heroin I smoked a bit of it and snorted some Adderall so that I wouldn’t fall back asleep. I smoked more dope around 11:30 and then smoked again at about 2pm before I went to go run a few errands. I needed the H to last me until I went to sleep so it was good I separated myself from it for a few hours. I got home about 6:30 craving to get high and since I still had quite a bit heroin left I got a little too high and I think I passed out in my bed for an hour or so. I woke up to my girlfriend calling me to come over to hang out for awhile. I’m not going to go into details but we had a good night. I had enough Heroin to share with her and was able to save a little chunk to smoke before I went to bet at about 12:30am.

1/26 – Suboxone and Sex, Plus Adderal, Kolonopin and Xanax…

  By Suboxone | March 19, 2012 - 11:26 pm | Daily Suboxone Journal
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Thursday, January 26th – 2012

          OK, this is getting crazy. For the second night in a row I have not been able to sleep. I took small amounts of Xanax and Kolonopin all night and my body is tiard but my mind will not let me sleep. At 6am I just gave up on sleeping and started my day. I took 4mgs of suboxone around 7am then around 8am I snorted about 10mg’s of Adderall. I did some work I needed to do, ate breakfast, and then it was time for me to meet my girlfriend for lunch. The problem was that 20 minuets into the 25 minuet drive to her work I realized I was an hour early. I called her and told her I was already there and she gave me the idea to kill the next hour at the mall close by. When I called to pick her up for work she asked me if her sister could come and I said that I didn’t care because I have always enjoyed the company of her sister. However thus time it turned out to be a mistake because I didn’t get the time I wanted to be with my girlfriend alone, so before I knew it I had to drop her back off at work. After that I had to run and errand that took about an hour and a half and during the drive home I made a mistake.

For some reason while I was driving home I started feeling really guilty about what I have been putting my family through especially because of recent financial trouble that had been cause by me. I shed a few tears and I just had a strong to just shut my mind off. This could have been due to not sleeping the last 2 days but I thought about getting High and Looked at the clock. It happened to be the right about the time my heroin dealer likes to meet up. I decide right then that I’m getting high tonight.

I end up splitting a ball with my girlfriends sister so I plan to have enough for me and my girl friend to get high tonight if she wanted too, ( she usually does if I have the drugs ) I think there was only one time since knowing her that she actually asked me to get some. And I figured I would also have enough to get high throughout the next day.

When I was waiting for my dealer to come I did begin to feel guilty about buying drugs but it was to late now. It was strange that I waited to separate the bag before I got high. usually I’d get high as fast as possible. I actually had it for quite awhile before I smoked any and when I smoked it I did it really slow and I didn’t do very much before I stopped and waited for my girlfriend to stop by to do some with me. After She came over and left I laid in bed and fell asleep and woke up a few times before my girlfriend called me to come over to her house.

I went over to her house and we got high and watched some TV. It was strange because lately I have not been feeling up to having sex but this night I ended up getting really horny and we had sex, the only problem is that I couldn’t get off. This seems to be a problem when I get high, I feel like I’m almost ready to blow my load but it never cum’s. It was still a great night, my girlfriend may have actually enjoyed it since I was able to please her without going to fast myself.

At around 12:30 I went home smoked a bit more and fell asleep in my chair until 3am when I moved into my bed and slept like an angle.

1/25 – Insomnia, Adderall and lot’s of Benzodiazepines

  By Suboxone | March 5, 2012 - 10:52 pm | Daily Suboxone Journal
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Wednesday, January 25th – 2012

          Well its about 9am right now and I’ve been up all night. I don’t know if its because I think I just couldn’t get my mind to slow down but it could be because I took Adderall yesterday. I think the main problem may be over using Xanax. Ever since Sunday I’v been taking to much Xanax and Kolonopin, they just don’t seem to work as good anymore. I’ve been taking to many benzodiazepines lately.

Anyway, I started feeling withdrawals around 7am but I waited until a little after 8 to take half of a Suboxone. I also just snorted 10mgs of Adderall and I may do a bit more in awhile. I have a few things I need to do today and my girlfriend will be coming over around 10am so I’m going to need the extra energy. Right now I seem to be feeling ok…

Later I ended up taking half of a suboxone pill and a whole xanax bar and felt better.

Some Information about Wednesday night may be missing.

1/24 – Adderall, Xanax, Klonopin, and Suboxone…

  By Suboxone | February 20, 2012 - 4:04 am | Daily Suboxone Journal
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Tuesday, January 24th – 2012

Today was kind of interesting. Last night I spent a good amount of time researching Suboxone and it seems like there is not much un-biased information about the drug. I did read one persons post and he mentioned that if you take some Adderall with the Suboxone you will have more energy and feel less depressed. This morning I took 8mgs of suboxone. I took just 4mgs then waited about 45 minuets and took the other half pill. After that I snorted about 10mgs of Adderall and I did have more energy and I think I felt less depressed so I did another 5mgs or so. For those of you that don’t know Adderall is basically speed in a pill form. It’s mainly used to treat ADHD, so if you don’t have ADHD it just gives you a high like speed or cocaine would. It just lasts longer than cocaine. But it’s obvious that the Adderal would make you feel better, I’m sure if I did speed or cocaine I would have felt the same way. The only downside that I experienced is that the Adderall can give you cold sweats and that is an opiate withdrawal symptom so make sure you don’t confuse the two if you try this.

So during the day I was more productive and I didn’t feel any withdrawl symptoms until dinner time. I decided that I would try just taking a quarter of a Suboxone (2mgs) and I seem to be doing ok now. I am heading over to my girlfriends house soon and I am taking the quarter pill with me incase I need it.

I just got back from my girlfriends house and it’s nice to have someone who you can get lost chatting to the whole night. I didn’t take anymore suboxone and I don’t think I will tonight. Now all I have to do is figure out how much Xanax and Klonopin I need to take to fall asleep.

1/23 – My 2nd Day Opiate Free, Taking Suboxone

  By Suboxone | February 18, 2012 - 1:02 am | Daily Suboxone Journal
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Monday, January 23rd – 2012

          My girlfriend came over at about 10am and woke me up like she usually does on Mondays but I think I just said a few words to her and we both fell asleep for about an hour and a half. Once we both actually woke up we made some coffee and just chatted and smoked cigarettes until she had to leave at 1:45pm. I forgot to mention that I took a half of a Suboxone when I woke up, then I took another half after she left. Once I was alone I did some work on my computer, watched some TV, and then ate dinner. After dinner at about 6:30 I took another half of Suboxone. I knew my Girlfriend would be calling me soon to invite me over to her house so I just messed around on my computer and watched TV until she called me around 9PM. I rushed over to her house and we watched a movie, she knew I wasn’t feeling good so nothing to exciting happened but just being alone with her makes me feel better. Maybe that’s why I only needed one and a half suboxone’s today.

1/22 – Taking Suboxone for the First Time

  By Suboxone | February 16, 2012 - 2:46 am | Daily Suboxone Journal
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Sunday, January 22nd – 2012

          Today I am making the switch to suboxone. I have waited about 14 hours since the last time I smoked heroin and plan on going to see a Movie with my Girlfriend and her sister. I took 4mgs and then about an hour later I took another 4mgs of Suboxone. After I got back home I took another 4mgs of suboxone and watched TV. I’m not 100% sure but I think I may have taken another 4mgs later that night.

Anyway I wanted to sleep as long as possible so I decided that I would try to go to sleep early. Going to sleep early for me is around 10 or 11pm, I’m usually up until 2-4am. My plan to fall asleep early was to take my last 10mg Flexeril, 4mgs of Klonopin, and 4mgs of Xanax. I luckily had just bought a good amount of Xanax bars from a friend, the other 2 medications  were prescribed to me. It seemed to work because I fell asleep watching TV around 9:30 or 10pm. The problem was that I woke up at about 12:30 AM. I instantly popped another 1 or 2 Xanax bars and went back to sleep but I woke up again at about 2:30 AM. I once again popped 1 or 2 Xanax bars and tried to go back to sleep but I ended up watching TV until about 6am when I was finally able to fall asleep again. Anyway, I can’t say I ever felt good during the day (or night) but as long as I was distracted and not sitting alone it really wasn’t that bad.

Recently I have decided to never take more than 2 full 8mg Suboxone pills in one day, I’m not 100% sure why I never take more than 2 pills, maybe it’s because I have people who I sell my extra Suboxone pills to or because I really don’t think taking more than 2 makes a difference in how I feel.

Note: I have a prescription of Klonopin and Xanax. I get 90 Klonopin’s and 12 pills of Xanax each month. I do buy Xanax off the street and I happen to have quite a few of them right now.

1/21 – From Smoking Heroin to Taking Suboxone

  By Suboxone | February 5, 2012 - 9:25 am | Daily Suboxone Journal
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 NOTE: This is the beginning of my Daily journal entry’s. My life story involving opiates started over 5 years ago and I may try to tell that story someday but I plan on at least telling my most recent story about Oxycotin, Heroin, Methadone, and Suboxone that started a few weeks before this journal entry. I will try to write it up and add it as soon as I can.

Saturday, January 21st – 2012

        Today I only have about .7 of a gram of Heroin. I plan on using it throughout the day and starting to count down the hours from when I take my last hit. It was a good day to hang out with my girlfriend and her daughter so that I wouldn’t spend all day getting high. All three of us went to Costco to do shopping and to eat at their little deli. After that the three of us met with my girlfriends sister at the video arcade. Her sister told me that she wanted me to get her a ball of heroin and that she would buy me a gram for getting it and delivering it to her.

Since I planned on quitting heroin today I just decided to get her the ball plus a half gram for my girlfriend. I was able to buy it around midnight but I told her I wouldn’t be able to get it until Sunday so I wouldn’t have to deliver it tonight. I pinched a bit from her ball and am smoking it right now. It’s about 1:30 AM so I will probably start counting down the hours from 2 AM. Anyway I better finish smoking this heroin, watch some TV, then get some sleep.

My Story Of Opiate Addiction and Trying to Quit With Suboxone (Buprenorphine/naloxone)

  By Suboxone | January 21, 2012 - 5:08 am | Uncategorized
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My Journal about Getting off Opiates Using Suboxone

I am currently working on a Journal about my battle with Opiate Addiction (Oxycotin, Morphine, Vicodin, Percocets, and Heroin). I have been keeping current with the last week or so but I want to start from about a month ago when I made my first real attempt switching to suboxone. That means no more Oxycotin, heroin, or any other opiates. It’s been interesting and I wish I could write about my 5 year long struggle trying to get off opiates but for right now I will just write about my most recent experience. Please post comments, that will probably be the only thing that will motivate me to keep writing.

I will try to get my journal posted ASAP.